A struggling Girl

The fact of Life

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ek ladki jo apni jindagi me apne sapno or asal jindagi k beech jhoojh rhi thi.

use apne sapne to pure krne the, par kisi ko dukhi kar ke nhi. agr wo apne sapne pure krti to use apne family se ladna hota or esa krke wo apni family ko dukhi nhi karna chahti thi. uski family ko uske sapno se aitraaz isiliye tha quki unhe pta tha ki isme kafi risk h. wo nhi chahte the ki unki beti k sath kuch bura ho.

wo use mna krte the, use kehte the tu pdai kr or acchi si koi job kr le ek bar settle ho gyi life me to jo karna h wo bad me krte rehna.

pr us ldki ko kuch smjh nhi aa rha tha ki wo kya kre…….use pta tha ki wo jo krna chahti h usme risk h or agr use apne spno ko pura krna hi h to pehle use settle hona hoga, koi secure job krni hogi.

ab use ye to pta chl gya ki use krna kya ,uske parents kuch glt nhi bol rhe pr problem ye thi, ki wo kre kya. wo pdne bethti, pdadi krti, pr use kuch smjh hi nhi ata. uski family use daily kehti “kuch kr le kitna time nikl gya kab tak ese hi bethi rhegi, tere sath ki sari ladkiya kuch na kuch kr rhi h, bas ek tu hi h jo abhi tak ghr pr bethi hai”. uske parents kafi preshan the kyunki wo apni ldki ko independent bnana chahte the. taki ake jake jab koi uske sath na ho wo khud apne liye kuch ar ske.

usse dekha nhi ja rha tha ki uski wjh se uski family dukhi h. par wo bhi kya krti wo kr to rhi thi mehnat pr kuch jyada fayda ho nhi rha tha. wo pdai to kr rhi thi pr pta nhi may be uske mind me ek bat beth gyi ki wo nhi kr payegi..

use writer bnna tha, wo daily search krti khi magzine me article uska publish ho jaye. usne kyi newspaper me bhi contact krne ki koshish ki but no respose. na to uske article koi magzine me publish ho rhe the or na hi uski job lgi thi or pdai use smjh nhi a rhi thi.

ese me wo ldki bhut preshan ho gyi, daily jb bhi pdne bethti to ro jati, andr se kafi udas rehne lgi pr bahr se hsti rehti.

uske pas koi nhi tha jisse wo apne dil ki bat share kr ske na koi dost or na hi koi family member, jise bta ske ki wo pdai kr rhi h pr smjhna mushkil h or jyada time uske pas h nhi. uske pehle hi 2 saal kisi exam ki prepration ki wjh se khrab ho chuke the.

wo ese me krti to kya use dheere dheere lgne lga “she is good for nothing”

usse dheere dheere sab kuch chhoot ta ja rha tha. uski paintings, uski writing, sketching sab kuch.

use ab sab se chid hone lgi thi, wo  khi chle jana chahti thi, khi esi jgh jha koi bhi na ho, jha srf wo ho or bas charo trf shanti.

use dheere dheere apne hi ghr me ghutan hone lgi thi. wo bhagna chahti thi, chillana chahti thi, khul k bolna chahti thi, rona chahti thi, pr wo ye sab kr nhi pa rhi thi. bs andr hi andr ghut ti ja rhi thi. kyunki use lag rha tha ki wo kuch nhi kr pa rhi h, or uske parents uski wjh se preshan ho rhe h .

lad rhi thi khud se, jeetna chahti thi is situation se, wo pdai to krti pr pda hua sb bhool jati, ya kuch esa ho jata ki use smjh hi nhi ata. usne internet pr khoob search kiya pr filhal uske hath nirasha hi lgi.

pr abhi bhi wo lad rhi h, usne abhi tak har  nhi mani, chahe wo kitna bhi roye, kitni hi takleef ho use, usne apne htiyar abhi tak nhi feke. abhi thodi si jaan baki h.

ab dekhna ye h ki kya use pdai smjh ayegi? kya uski job lag payegi? wo apne sapno ko pura kr payegi? writer bn payegi?

ya fr wo halato se haar man legi, bhool jayegi apne sapno ko or uhi and hi andr ghut ti rhegi.

dekhte h wo iska samna kese krti hain.

To be Continued………